the last post...

was written in a bit of fury. I can't deny that those feelings are mine, and they are not ones that will go away. Life has improved for me, and our money situation will as well.

This week has improved my mood. It helps to reconnect with friends, even the ones that I feel inferior to in terms of money. I spent time in the company of a couple of cute babies, enjoyed my working week, and made some plans for the future which I look forward to.

Last night I helped my oldest friend turn thirty. We have known each other since we were four! We went through primary and high school together, remained friends through all the years we went different places and did different things. We ended up living quite close together, which has been wonderful. Last night was a fantastic evening. Dinner for seven, interesting conversation, hilarious moments, great food, flowing drinks...it was a good way to celebrate. Neither one of us can believe that we both turn thirty this year - it feels like yesterday we were having parties at our houses for our birthdays when we turned 7 or 8! I hope to remain friends with her for a very long time to come. It will be wonderful to spend most of my life as friends, how often do we get to do that!

what to do...

when you're so much poorer than all your friends?

You would think I would be used to it after 3/4 years of this being the case. However, it never less painful, and with time more frustrating and difficult. Ah, I know it's rant, but its just the way things are. However, the more it goes on, the more I find myself isolating myself, and the more frustrated I get when other people just move on with their lives, and I am not included. I get why, it just hurts. And the money situation is out of my control, and always will be. Thats probably the hardest thing to accept.

the thaw....

the snow has for the most part disappeared. It was here a good month - I miss driving to work in a winter wonderland. Although, I am blessed, my commute takes me through some lovely Scottish countryside and costal scenery. And I have discovered the joy of the spoken book to keep me company. Starting out with pride and prejudice, I realise that I still love hearing what happens next, and the journey flies by. Bonus, I have a whole bunch of books on CD to listen to, and now an itrip for my ipod. More will be downloaded.

Christmas has been and gone. The new year is almost here. My work continues to go well, but I'm beginning to face the challeneges that come with being a manager. I have to remind myself that I chose to do this, because I believe that I can, and that they hired me because they believed the same thing.

Currently the cat and the husband are asleep. They will be woken before the new year comes in. I will not celebrate alone.

let it snow let it snow let it snow...

Snow! The theme for the week - or the theme for the rest of winter! Car has been stuck since Monday. Now I need to dig it out tomorrow, and venture bravely out of my town. Wish me luck! Started my new job, unable to go into it this week. Arghhh! My head is a little all over the place, new job, graduation, choir concert, christmas, catteries, vet bills, christmas shopping, messy house...... the list is long, and I could probably make it a much longer one if I thought about it. These ones were just off the top of my head!

However, today was nice - choir rehearsal, coffee with a friend in a new, lovely coffee shop, and a spade picked up on the way home. Now I rest in my house, watching trashy tv, watching the cat sleep on the other sofa. He has a good life :) Wine in one hand, blanket in the other.

Hope the week continues on a positive note, I'm not so convinced that it will!

things are afoot...

Registered for my graduation today. Exciting. Actually got a good respectable result for my degree, so will be happy to go recieve it. Never done this before, even though this is not my first degree, so I'm some what excited. Also have my choir concert that same weekend, and the parentals will be around for a few days then as well, so it really should be a good time.

Whats more exciting, is the change in my employment. Same company, different role ..... a promotion if you will. Well pleased, totally nervous, but looking forward to it. Big challenge, but big challenges are good things, so I'm up for it. Life is too short not to be challenged, life is too short not to succeed. Succeeding doesn't always mean what we automatically believe it to me, I've learnt that the long, wrong way. But either way, as long as I embrace the new challenge and do the best I can, thats all I can ask of myself. It's all good!

two weeks...

Two weeks of holidays are almost over. It's been wonderful to nothing much. Had a fantastic night out with work, then a great flying visit to the big city to see some friends and family, and run through Ikea. Meatballs were purchased. My neice and nephew were very excited to see me twice in one week, and it was wonderful to spend some time with them. Also got the chance to see my brother and fiancee, as well as my gran.

Tuesday I did nothing. And it was great! The past couple of days have passed in a blur of spending time with my husband, seeing cute babies and looking forward to good things this weekend. I'm even ok with going back to work, as in two weeks time, I think things will change again!

Nervous and excited would sum up how I'm feeling about this, but it's all for the best :)

I think I may be a grown up.

now where were we?

Things have continued to improve in general. The cat continues to be healthy and well, even though his blood sugars have not come down, but the vet says this will take time. An example of how chilled out our cat is, was today at the vets. He decided that this would be the perfect time to roll over and have his belly rubbed. I don't think the vet has ever seen a cat do that before!

Career wise, things seem to be progressing. Not to say too much, but a better job opportunity has come my way (via a stressful presentation and interview!) and hopefully I will be moving posts in the next month or so. It's exciting, but nerve wracking! I will have to put a lot of work in, but it'll be worth it I'm sure.

Spending time with my new neice has been a highlight of this week! We road tripped it to the big city and went to ikea, visiting my mum, and my sister, and other neice and nephew on the way back. My other neice was unimpressed with the baby crying, but they thought she was lovely. Which she is!