the last post...

was written in a bit of fury. I can't deny that those feelings are mine, and they are not ones that will go away. Life has improved for me, and our money situation will as well.

This week has improved my mood. It helps to reconnect with friends, even the ones that I feel inferior to in terms of money. I spent time in the company of a couple of cute babies, enjoyed my working week, and made some plans for the future which I look forward to.

Last night I helped my oldest friend turn thirty. We have known each other since we were four! We went through primary and high school together, remained friends through all the years we went different places and did different things. We ended up living quite close together, which has been wonderful. Last night was a fantastic evening. Dinner for seven, interesting conversation, hilarious moments, great food, flowing drinks...it was a good way to celebrate. Neither one of us can believe that we both turn thirty this year - it feels like yesterday we were having parties at our houses for our birthdays when we turned 7 or 8! I hope to remain friends with her for a very long time to come. It will be wonderful to spend most of my life as friends, how often do we get to do that!

what to do...

when you're so much poorer than all your friends?

You would think I would be used to it after 3/4 years of this being the case. However, it never less painful, and with time more frustrating and difficult. Ah, I know it's rant, but its just the way things are. However, the more it goes on, the more I find myself isolating myself, and the more frustrated I get when other people just move on with their lives, and I am not included. I get why, it just hurts. And the money situation is out of my control, and always will be. Thats probably the hardest thing to accept.