Wednesday, 31 August 2011

settling into my new life

Since my last blog post I've continued to settle into my new life. It's funny. Life carries on as before, but I'm continually adjusting to what my life now is.

Funny, it's the small things - cooking for one, making do with what I have in the house, pleasing myself in the evenings, and weirdly, taking more effort to look after the house. The cat has joined me in bed now, which is nice, apart from when he wants to wake me up. Remembering my keys every time I leave the house is now a habit I have to form.

And yes, there are lows. Not as many as I thought there would be, but some nonetheless.

And bigger changes to come, with new jobs in the horizon, friends travelling....and I don't want to lose the whole feeling that my life has opened up and life is exciting. I've felt that I'm losing that a little this week, and there's a slippery slope I don't want to go down, so I need to find ways to turn that around.

It may just be that autumn is upon us. And we never even got a summer.

Saturday, 20 August 2011

it really is time to have a life.

I had a glance through all my blog posts, and realised, that without knowing, I had been talking about the major choices I have made this summer. I didn't even know I was making them, until I did, but I quite clearly, subconciously have had them on my mind for quite some time.

Anyway, I face the tail end of summer as a new single lady (he did put a ring on it, but I chose to take it off). It's a huge change. Sorry, that should read, a HUGE change. I sitll have my cat, which is something indeed. In fact, thats who I now share a bed with. I'm still working in my job (although that will change in winter), and I have been embraced by a huge outpouring of love and support by all my family and friends. It's been an uplifting thing in an otherwise horrible situation. Horrible, but necessary.

So now....the future. Wow, a little overwhelming, but exciting nonetheless. Good days, bad days, strange days. Right now I just deal with what comes my way, and accept feelings of all kinds are fleeting.

So today. The sun is shining, I'm going to watch some rugby and I have lovely plans for coffee and chats with friends tomorrow. My cat is happy and well, I get to spend some time with family today. Life's pretty good.